There is a lot that goes on with cancer treatments that people don’t talk about. The side effects for instance, some are good but most not such a pleasure to deal with.
Did you know that your urine and bowel movements are toxic? They tell you to wipe the seat off after going to the bathroom, closing the lid of the toilet to flush, and flushing twice! This is to protect other family members!
But there is more! Just think if your bodily excretions are that toxic, imagine what it feels like on your skin? Bowel movements burn, and you must get it off as quickly as possible. The urine must not come in contact with your skin.
In my case add into the mix, a terrible cough, on top of having had 3 children, and incontinence every time I cough, deep, racking coughs, with toxic urine sitting next to your skin, in a very sensitive area, and you get an image of one small piece of my world last week. When the doctor took a look she just said,’oh, honey, we need to fix this,” what I thought might be an ingrown hair turned out to be a fissure (a nice way of meaning that the skin is breaking down from the toxic urine being held next to my skin by the pads I wear so I don’t leak on my clothes.
I have come to the conclusion after yesterday (a really bad day) that chemotherapy is a near death experience that you repeat on purpose in order to live. It I taking your body, mind and spirit to the edge, all the while thinking - “I can’t do this anymore!” The next morning you get up and you feel a tiny bit better, and you look forward to feeling a little bit better the next day, all the while knowing you are going to do it all over again!
Fighting Cancer is 95% Mental. It’s knowing that your body is weak, but that you must fight if you want to stay on this earth.
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